Your inner child pt.4

In between researching topics, I have been working on healing my inner child. During a letter that I wrote to my inner child I had finally been able to verbalize and talk about an incident that happened when I was in about 5th or 6th grade. This is something that I have always stuffed down deep inside myself and if it ever bubbled up to the surface I immediately  suppressed it back down. It came out during my writing and as uncomfortable as it was to acknowledge it, I was able to hold it and I was able to accept that it happened. That specific incident took place and set forth another incident in motion. A situation that I also stuffed down for years. I figured that this was a good opportunity to move forward with the healing of my inner child, but also a good opportunity to have a really difficult conversation. I reached out to my friend and asked if he could chat after work. I was dreading the conversation, and wasn't quite sure how I was going to approach it. 

The time came for me to call him, which I did. I had a huge spike of anxiety at first, but was able to get it under control. I had let him know that I was on a self help healing journey, and had filled him in on what was going on, talked to him about the concept of the inner child. Talked about how I was trying to heal from childhood traumas. This lead into the incident that took place, and explained the tremendous amount of guilt that I had carried for years about it and apologized. I had asked how it may have affected him over the years, and he said it didn't. He was able to forgive me and understood how that cycle could perpetuate itself. He ended it by saying I feel no different about you now, then before you called and stated that he was glad that I was on this journey and that it helps me to find happiness. It was by far the most awkwardly difficult conversation that I have had, but yet it turned out way better than I anticipated, I was shocked then and I am certainly shocked right now. I am glad that it turned out the way that it did, and I was proud of myself for being able to have that conversation.