Busy weekend

Hard to believe the weekend is already over. It feels like I just left work on Friday afternoon. Even though the weekend was short it was a decent weekend overall. My Nephews were up early both days and just non stop. I took them to the playground up the road on Saturday morning, and then took them swimming in the afternoon after their nap time at the community pool followed by Chick-fil A kids meals for dinner. It was nice to treat them a little bit and they seemed to enjoy it. Yesterday was a difficult day as far as the kids goes. My oldest Nephew was being very difficult and not listening. It was a long day for for myself and his mom. I found myself having to step out of the roll of "Uncle Matt" and drop into dad mode as he was getting out of hand. I'm sure that some of his behavior is stemming from the situation taking place down here. As busy as it is I've enjoyed spending time with my sister and nephews. I'm also looking forward to treating them to ice cream this week. I've also started the official countdown to when uncle Matt is leaving to help make the transition smoother for them when the time comes. 

My sister finally told me the whole story of what happened to my brother in law. How he is still alive is beyond me. I feel like she made the right choice by not giving up on him and I commend her for making that decision even though life will not be the same for her, and in many ways, much more difficult. It's been interesting to observe the family dynamics and really solidifies the things that are important in life. I will leave here tired, but I will also leave here with a stronger sense of family and knowing that the family I love is waiting for me back home. I'm blessed for what I have, and finding joy in every moment is important because as tough as we think we are, it can all be taken away in the blink of an eye. 

Family matters

 Today marks the fourth day that I have been down in Georgia to help my sister with the kids and the house as she tends to my brother in law. It's been bittersweet to see  my nephews as I don't get a lot of time with them due to the distance between where I live and where they live. However, on the flip side it's been hard seeing my brother in law and the condition that he is in. I can't imagine going through something like that. My sister has been great with him though. She has a lot on her plate, but she epitomizes what a union  should be like. The amount of work that she is putting in to him is astonishing. Really, at this point I'm not sure who is the tougher person. Him for making it through his situation or her for having to pick up everything, including taking care of him. The irony of the situation is that I am here to help, and that he can barely talk and when he does he's extremely soft spoken, I happen to be half deaf so I'm sure you can imagine how that goes! It turns into a lot of pointing at things.

Even though I haven't (and hopefully never) had to go through that it's been great to see how this is playing out as far as their relationship goes. They clearly have a solid relationship and my sister is not backing down from the hardest thing that she has had to contend with in her life. I have a lot of respect for her. It's also nice to know that I have a person that I would do the same thing for if ever need be. So this thought process isn't all bad, it's been amazing to see the amount of work that my brother in law does during the day for physical therapy. He's putting in a solid 8 hours a day as far as rehab goes.  

We are coming up on the weekend, not sure of what is going to transpire. There is talk of me taking the boys to Chick-fil-a and to the playground. Whatever we do, I'm sure that I'll be exhausted. Even though it's only been a few days I miss my family back home, and I miss my dog. I don't want to wish this trip away, but I'm looking forward to seeing them again. 

9 Months & The Vacancy that's here

I woke up and my thoughts were immediately with you. You would have been born this month, and you're not going to be. I've spent the last few months trying to come to terms with this. You would have been my world. Please look down on your mother today, I think she is going to really need it. She loves you, too. Your brothers love you, they just don't know it yet. Thank you for choosing me to be your father, I can't wait to meet you someday. I love you, Princess.

Energies entwined, to create ecstasy.

Fruit of the womb, takes the seed.

To create new life , a part of me

Scared & joyous, overly.

You were but, just a pea.

To learn that you will never be,

Crushed my soul, so heavily. 

You would have been a Sister to three,

Beautiful, smart, and carefree.

I'd ask that you could sit with me

but, since you can't, I hope you see,

that my love will always be.

                             -Dad