Big things, much anxiety.

 is it just me, or is the summer screaming by. This summer has been alright so far. The weather has been awful, rain, fog, rain, more fog. Very few days of good weather. The days that we have had though have been gorgeous. The record shop has been doing well though, and am making slow and steady preparations to vendor the comic convention in October. just need a few more large orders and I think i'll have enough inventory for the full three day weekend. Regardless, it will be a good time spent with the little guy and friends. 

Our Florida trip is fast approaching, we leave PWM on Saturday at 5:30 in the morning. After the last flight fiasco the thought of traveling makes me want to puke. However, I am looking forward to spending time with my parents. No sooner will I get back and my trip down to Georgia will be here before you know it. I'm already exhausted thinking about it. 

Things are going well around the house. It's busy, and there isn't enough time in the day to get anything done, but it slow and steady wins the race. I'm trying to relax and not be so uptight about the little things. The boys seem to be doing better this go around, they still bicker, but it's not like it used to be, and the general feeling and attitude coming from them about the situation feels different this time around. I think it finally clicked. 

This morning was rather stressful. I've been filling out paperwork to restructure the 50/50 agreement that the Ex-wife and I have. We have been doing 50/50 time spent and expenses, but we have been doing half week on and half week off. This has been a bit of a concern from the little as he never has a chance to fully settle and feels like he is bouncing around all the time. Because I have him on the weekends he also never really has any quality time with his mom to do things. Thus, the restructure. I'm trying to get 1 week on & 1 week off. This will give him the ability to settle a bit, and also give him some time with his mother on the weekends (two weekends a month.) I filled out 90% of it, and she was dragging her feet on giving me her financials so I could fully finish the paperwork, so I decided to just mail it to her direct, and then filed a copy with the court so we can do mediation. This was a big step for me, and the anxiety this morning was big. I'm proud of myself for doing it, and am expecting blowback, cause, well, that's what she does. fingers crossed.

In other news, I did a big boy adult thing again. The laundry machine shit the bed, so I took the plunge and bought a new front load washer and dryer. Should be here tomorrow. I'm pretty excited. 

The Summer is picking up

 Another week almost done and rushing into the summer. It seems like this year has gone by faster than it normally does. With the good weather amongst us I have decided to finish the work day out on the deck under the canopy enjoying the view. The last few weeks have been a whirlwind. I'm finally fully settled from my trip back from Georgia. I had a blast with the boys and it was nice to be able to help my sister out with the things that she needed. The trip back home was a shit show as usual. Missed flights, and 12+ hours of hanging around the Atlanta airport. I made the best of it, and had some decent Chinese food to boot, and for less than twenty-dollars! 

Baseball has officially ended for the season. Quite the experience this year. Little guy made it to a new league this year, and was on a fairly young team. Over all their spent most of the season getting destroyed by the other teams. However, it was nice to see him grow as a team player and an individual player. Even though they lost all but 1 of their games they seemed to have fun, and take it in stride. I'm already looking forward to next season (even though this league is way busier than the previous.) We hit another milestone this week as well. Little man officially finished elementary school and is on his way to Middle school. He had his 5th grade graduation yesterday. It's wild to me that he is already on his way to 6th grade. It seems like he just started Kindergarten not to long ago. I'm actually sad to see his leave Ash Pointe school. The facility was brand new as of him entering in 1st grade, and the staff / faculty have been nothing but awesome and supportive there. I know he is stressing about the transition into the new school, this coming year. 

Things have been going well as of recent. still waiting for that low to come, and it doesn't seem to be arriving, which is proof the medication is working. My energy level seems to be staying high as well. Maybe not being in a low and my body no longer fighting an ear infection is helping in that department as well. The new hire class that I am currently doing seems to be flowing smooth with no issues thus far. 1 more week to go before they finish. As always it will be nice for the class to be done with, will miss staying busy 100% of the work day. 

We celebrated Esthers birthday early yesterday. The boys were excited to give her gifts, and her birthday dinner that she requested (Marinated steak tips & red potatoes with garlic green beans) came out awesome. For her cake, I made a white cake with lemon marmalade filling, and vanilla frosting. So.Good. Her actual birthday is next weekend, and she will be headed to Boston with the ladies to get away from Maine, and to see the band Cake. She's excited, and I'm happy that she is getting the chance to head south. That means I will be wrangling the boys for a "man weekend," A trip to Portland is in the works. Overall the boys have been doing well with each other. Orion has stepped it up quite a bit as far as his patience and grace with the boys, and if he is overwhelmed he is starting to remove himself from situations where previously he would retaliate. It's been nice to see. 

Things are going smooth so far. Conversations, and planning for things are taking place. The paperwork for altering my 50/50 is for the most part done, I need to make a correction, a copy of the paperwork, and send it registered mail to the ex-wife. We have come up with a plan to ultimately transition, but to keep her boys in the Camden school system where they have better resources. I was sitting in church this morning with the boys and I had a calming, good feeling like this is the right choice. It's a nice feeling because I feel like it backs up how I feel about the decision. It's been nice to be together as a family again. working on little house projects and planning for others. It's been nice to make progress and not only see some of it, but also nice to hear that I am starting to progress from my therapist as well. It's busy, but a good busy. I look forward to the future. 

After The Boston weekend, Orions birthday follows. The music community is planning on doing a open mic for him, and then we will have some sort of small shin dig at the house the following day with family and a few of his friends. Cake, bbq, chips etc. After that it will be off to Florida to visit my family for two weeks. I'll be working the first week and then on vacation the second week. Orion is looking forward to time with his grandparents.