Did I really appreciate you?

One of the things that I have been trying to work through is appreciation. The fact that I made you feel like you were not appreciated. Again, I can't deny your feelings, and if I made you feel that way, I am sorry. Did all the things I appreciate you for get lost in the mix?  Fact is, that has been sitting with me for a few weeks now. I took some time to think about it. I asked myself some questions. Did I really appreciate her? Did I value her? If I did really appreciate her, what did I actually appreciate her for? The answer is yes, I do. Very much so.  I made a pretty lengthy list so I can visualize all the things that I appreciate her for, this of course doesn't encapsulate the full list:

Why I appreciate you:

- You're a supportive partner

- You have a big heart

-You're a great mother 

- You're determined in all things that you do

- You're passionate about life 

- You seek to understand 

-You expect more out of people and push them to be the best version of themselves

-You are beautiful 

-You're beautiful on the inside down to a soul level

- You are a great friend to people

- You know what you want

-You complete me

-You love hard

-You love your family

-You're tender but also know when not to be

-You allowed me to take care of you when you were sick 

-You helped me grow as a person 

-You carried my child

-You're fun and bring out the best in me

-You make home, home.

-You're a hard worker

-You're cooking

-You're appreciation for life & connection with it

-You're empathic ability

-You're passion & curiosity about things

-You're love for plants, and turning me on to them

-You know me better than anyone

-I love you're ability of intuition & to see patterns

-I love your artwork

- That you are sentimental

-You're a straight shooter (even when it's hard to hear things)

-That you're an adventurer & free spirit

-Your passion in the bedroom and willingness to teach

-You strive for more than what you had

-Tremendous amount of work you have done understanding and adapting to special needs

-I love your soul

-The connection that you made with me and the bond that we have/had

-Always bringing me coffee in the morning (even if you were mad)

-The way that you look at me from across the room

-The sparkle in your eyes

-Your smile

-The way that you make me feel

-Allowing the connection between me and your boys to take place