Gut feelings & Validation

I have been trusting my gut feeling and following my heart, this has helped me stay motivated. Slowly chipping away at progress in the journey to heal and mold the person that I want to be. This morning I had my son doing positive affirmations with me. I'm sure that sausage (our dog) was looking at us and wondering what the hell we were doing. We had some fun with it this morning. I had a great heart to heart today with an old friend and it was nice to be validated in my feelings and that I have laid out the proper goals for the next month anyway. The last two months have scared me out of survival mode, and it's so nice to be able to see clearly and not have the brain fog that has been lingering for the last 5 years. My brain is still scattered a bit in the way, i guess, someone with ADDs brain is scattered, but things are actually clear. I'm going to be sitting down this weekend to write down exactly what I want so that I can visualize it. 

I think the running has helped with that as well. I took that positive energy and ran from the house up to the owls head transportation museum on my lunch break. It only took me 30 minutes lol. It felt good to sweat, and it felt good to channel some positive energy, the sun was also nice. I have a project to complete this afternoon and then we have baseball practice tonight followed by a special phone call with two little boys. I'm excited to talk to them, I miss them. I'm looking forward to hearing how they have been doing and hear what they have been up to. I miss the commotion, and the pure innocent excitement and wonder that those boys have. Although I am okay with being by my self now, the silence is deafening at times. while I was running I had a picture in my head on the way back to the house of you guys standing in the driveway waiting for me to come back from the run. This gave me the motivation to push through to the finish line. even though my hips were achy. 

Total side note, I played basketball by myself this week and had fun doing it. I forgot how much I used to like playing basketball.