Today is Wednesday. I got up and did my affirmations, and actually made myself an omelet for breakfast and some toast with your moms blackberry jam. I'm feeling pretty good, a little tired from running. Based on the weather and only giving myself a 1 day break from running since I have started, I think i'm going to take today off from running. If the rain holds off I'll take doggos for a walk. Today marks the first day that I get to go over and see you and the boys since we split., hang out, have some feel good moments together, and then to continue discussing a plan to transition. I'm excited, 41 years old and I have butterflies. An awakening realization of what I'm lucky to have, and the time spent apart. I guess absence really does make the heart grow fonder. Needless to say it is going to be a long day at work.
per morning routine of the last few months, I listened to our horoscopes and started listening to Mel Robbins. Today was about the different kinds of anxiety. Under reacting and over reacting anxiety. She recognizes that she is an over reactor and interviewed her family members to see how it made them feel when she went into that mode. She also brought up a few different scenarios that happened in their family life, and how she responded. Sounds like we have something in common Mel. Overthinking and reactionary decisions? yep. That's me!
She talked about being able to reign yourself in, and to have your partner keep you in check when they sense that is what you are up to. This spoke to me as this has been a talking point in our relationship at different points, and something I am going to work very hard on. I recognize this was a huge blow to our relationship last year (and a few other points.) It's us versus the world, not Matt versus the world.
It was nice to see your face last night on our video chat. Although you had a long day of travel, work, and then tending to the kids, I appreciate you carving out time for me. It means a lot. You're a wonderful soul. You also found one of my favorite pictures of you. I was so excited when you sent it to me yesterday over text message. I thought it was lost forever. Stay beautiful<3
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